Tuesday, July 27, 2010


So I have been thinking a lot about my memories from childhood. I am not sure why, but it has been on my mind a lot how I made the friends that I still have friendships with today. I moved around a lot before highschool and I actually don't have any childhood friends that I am still in contact with, there are two girls from when I was a child that I have reconnected with via myspace and the internet but it isn't like we are real friends. The friends I am still in contact with 1 was made in 8th grade and the others in 9th grade. I can remember moving to Long Beach and my new school, the worst part about this move was the school required uniforms and when I went to get registered I was not in a uniform and I had to start school that day. Talk about making a kid feel out of place. I have a hard time remembering much about school when I first moved to Long Beach but I can remember how I followed the same group of kids home everyday and we walked the exact same way toward 2nd street and then they turned down 1 street before mine. I remember listening to their conversations and trying to figure out if any of them were related. It ended up that 2 were stepsisters and everyone else was just friends. I am not sure how it happened but I ended up walking with them and finally having friends. Only one of thes girls I am still in regular contact with...it is so crazy that I don't remember how I went from walking alone to walking with other kids. I have been thinking a lot about how people treat other people and why the world seems so dark. When I was the new girl at middle school why didnt any of the kids in my classes talk to me or reach out to me? I know one of the classes there was a language barrier since I was placed in english as a second language by mistake. But what about all of the other teens? By this time in life what our parents have been teaching and modelling comes through. There are people like the group of 5 girls who were nice to me that are the exception but the groups and clicks start young. And if no one looks beyond their group as we grow up I think we stick to ourselves and we miss opportunities to make friends and to help people. I feel that my experience as a teen has helped me to become the person that I am today but i know that I have missed opportunities to help people or to just be a friend because of life and being busy. I hope that God will continue to place people in my path who just need a little love and that they will allow me to show them God's love.

Friday, July 16, 2010

writing a book??

So i love to read and my husband recently asked me why i dont want to write a book, since i love to read. I have been thinking about this a lot since he mentioned it. In the morning I usually go for a walk with my baby and we look at birds, airplanes, car and all of the fun yard decorations in our neighborhood. Today our walk got me thinking about an idea for a book and I might try to work on an outline. Every time I think of an idea for a book I cant seem to get it out of my head and onto paper and I always think this has probably already been written. The main idea is two moms from totally different backgrounds live in the same neighborhood and become friends. The story will chronicle the mishaps and joys of motherhood and friendship. But I need a BIG problem and I havent gotten that far yet...maybe one has to move to a 3rd world country...or one has a house fire and how they move forward from that. See I have too many ideas....maybe I will just work on the characters for now :)

Friday, July 09, 2010

first bloom

We planted sunflowers in the spring and they are all starting to bloom. This is the first one!

Thursday, July 08, 2010


Our little man and I tagged along over the weekend camping in Mary & Jim's camper. He had so much fun camping and I enjoyed watching him explore. He is growing up so fast! He is 17 months old and he loved camping. We played at the park, went to the beach, played in the pool and the water fun zone, went for walks and bike rides. He is not a fan of the bike helmet but after his first bike ride he didn't fuss anymore. I am amazed at how quickly he learns things. He is starting to communicate more and doing some signs. He just started shaking his head NO and we ask him to say no thank you and he does the sign for no. I cant wait for our next camping trip! We had so much fun! The best part was he loved the fireworks, when the first one went off he put his hands up like what? Then started to clap! He is so stinkin cute!!